I Feel Like Screaming!

Stress: The confusion created when one’s mind overrides the body’s basic desire to choke the living daylights out of some jerk who desperately deserves it

I have just wanted to scream the last couple weeks and I don’t know why. The only thing I can figure is that I’m under some sort of stress.

That’s something strange for me. I’m the kind of person who doesn’t get stressed out and who doesn’t worry much about anything. I don’t know what would be causing it; my classes aren’t too difficult, in fact I actually enjoy them. For most people in college, class is the number one cause of stress, but I’ve noticed recently that by attending class, I fell better, so if this screaming feeling is stress, class seems to relieve it.

I guess I could just be flat out frustrated. I’ve been frustrated or aggravated by something before, but I’ve never felt like having to scream for hours to feel better. There shouldn’t be anything going on in my life that is frustrating. Things between me and Erin have been good, I haven’t had a problem with my school work, I’ve been able to have me time just about every day this semester.

This is truly a strange feeling, and I don’t think I’m comfortable with it.

I’ve also been having some strange sleeping issues. Lately, there have been a few nights where I’ve slept for 12+ hours. I completely slept through a Psi meeting and two PM meetings; I’ve napped for so long that when I wake up, I realize that I’ve missed a discussion I wanted to go to or I’ve missed an optional lab that I was signed up for, etc. I’m kinda freaked out by this, I’m not going to lie. I feel like it’s only a matter of time before I find myself sleeping through an exam, or what’s worse, sleeping through work. Ok, so I don’t know if work is worse, but whatever.

Maybe that’s what’s bothering me. Maybe I’m just afraid that I’m going to sleep through work or class. I mean, the first two meetings I’ve missed, I missed them because I set an alarm and apparently I turned it off without even waking up. I now have two alarms in my room, but one of them is gaining time so fast that each morning I wake up and it’s an hour earlier than it’s supposed to be. I guess I could use my iTunes Alarm widget, but that would mean I have to find a playlist that will wake me up, which I don’t think is possible.

I don’t think this sleeping issue is caused by not getting enough sleep. I’ve been getting the same amount of sleep each night since the beginning of the summer. I’ve been going to sleep around 11 or midnight each night, sleeping soundly until 6 or 7 each morning then getting up to get ready for work or class. I spend a little over 8 hours a day on campus each day either at work or in class. I’ve been working out on my hangboard every other day and every time I’m working or in class, I’ve been walking a good seven miles a day…

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I just don’t get it.

That was probably the most random spewage of crap that I’ve ever written in this blog. If any of you can remember a time I wrote something more random, let me know.


::sigh::

Now that I got that rant out of my system, on to something more interesting.

Tonight is BEERFEST!! Over 300 different beers to taste, only one hour to taste in and only $25 to get in! Erin and I will be visiting the Bloomington Convention Center today after she gets out of Hundred rehearsal and we both eat a modest dinner, hopefully at the expense of some freshman’s meal points.

Tomorrow night, 40% Steve is playing at the Bluebird. Erin, Carrie and I are planning on going for some good music and (moderately) good beer. Saturday night is Mike and Joe at the Bluebird… Guess who’s going…

…that’s right, Me and Erin, and possibly Will Petersen, and I’m going to try to convince Will to go too.

Saturday is also IU vs OSU. And I think Jeremy and Ben might be coming down to hang out, which I’m looking forward to.

Anyway, this is arleady a long post because of my above vent. So here’s the end.

peace

The End-of-the-Blog Rundown

Song of the DayA Boy Named Sue – Johnny Cash

Villain of the Day – Cold rain

Hero of the Day – Whatever freshman buys me dinner.

Current MoodTired – Stressed… or something…

Until the next post…


One thought on “I Feel Like Screaming!

  1. yeah dude…i think that stress is just your subconcious telling you to go out and take some time to relax and be by yourself for awhile…ease up on the work and class schedule a little…

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